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June 20, 2006
No Real Reason to Write
I don't really have a reason to write a blog entry today. Today is a rest day, from running at least. I did manage to do the core and strength work that I skipped yesterday due to lack of time. That's about all the exercise I'm going to get today.
I also don't really have a reason to write about Father's Day, either. The holiday was a really tough day for me. I have no father figures left in my life, and for some strange reason, this occurred to me last night as abruptly as I imagine it would feel to run into a brick wall. My maternal grandfather died years ago, when I was old enough to remember him, but when I was too young to have acquired many memories of him. My paternal grandfather died at the end of 2004 after a short, abrupt, and surprising illness. I knew him all throughout my childhood and adult life, and my memories of him are many. And now my father is gone as well.
Oh well, I guess there isn't much I can do. These are the facts, and they aren't going to change. What will have to change is my attitude towards the facts. I know I won't be down and out for long, and pardon my short indulgence in sadness for the moment.
Posted by Meghan at June 20, 2006 7:49 PM
Comments
I can only imagine the void you must be feeling! The only thing I can offer is to dwell on the memories and keep them with you in that way. They will always be a part of you, Father's Day and every day.
I appreciate your sharing with us. I'm sending strength your way!
Posted by: anne at June 20, 2006 9:54 PM
Hi there,
I can definitely relate having lost my father this year and my father-in-law the year prior. Normally I don't vest much in the consumer holidays but my father loved an excuse to get presents and attention (I definitely have gotten that trait from him) so it was always a noteworthy day. I second the comment on dwelling on memories and also add that it's OK to be sad no matter what the day. Hang in there.
Mary
Posted by: Mary at June 21, 2006 10:26 AM
I'm tempted to write some silliness to get you to smile, but I'll leave it with a more important,'Hang in there.'
Posted by: duncan at June 21, 2006 1:04 PM
You're a great, thoughtful daughter Meghan. Take care.
Posted by: Audrey at June 21, 2006 4:54 PM
wow...i'd just been wondering what you were up to and then bloglines dumped your 10 last posts on me all at once.
what a crazy and exciting summer you've been having! everything from epic bike rides, to boob-bouncing heart tests to beer-belly show offs! what is with us guys? can't let a girl pass us, oh no! even if she's OBVIOUSLY in much better shape...better to die trying than be emasculated like THAT! hahah...what a bunch of morons we can be sometimes. and the treadmill? oh, come on, they've GOT to have a better procedure than that. i think the technician was just having fun at your expense.
Posted by: jeff at June 22, 2006 12:23 PM