September 21, 2013
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This morning I ran 17 miles, first semi-long one after a recovery week. The weather has turned a touch cooler, but even a few degrees made a difference. I was still godawful slow, but less drained at the end.
The run did give me the opportunity to ruminate on my shortcomings in orchestra, in lessons, what have you. I dreamed up the worst possible scenarios (culminating in being told, publicly, that I was no good and never would be) and played them over and over in my head.
Of course, by the time I finished the run I was in a really bad mood. I'd made plans to work on something this afternoon with my cellist friend from orchestra, and I was not looking forward to it. I hadn't had time to practice the pieces, and as you may have guessed, my faith in any innate musical ability has evaporated this past week. But it turned out surprisingly ok, even the new piece. I could play - at least, I could play better than I do at lessons. We worked on counting and feel and sound, and I think we will be able to think about phrasing soon. It was fun; we stopped not because we ran out of steam but because we ran out of time. I wish I could carry this into lessons and orchestra. But anyway: thank you, Mary. You have helped me more than you know.
Posted by joe positive at September 21, 2013 6:17 PM
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