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June 6, 2010
I am officially over it
I am officially over Cleveland. Over the 20s PR, over the pie-in-the-sky age-graded time, over the negative split, over the not-yet-official 3rd place masters finish.
I am back to being the slow, supremely unconfident schlub plodding 9:30 miles in the heat, unwilling to face pain, unable to haul myself to a local 5k, unable to hope for anything but maintaining my dubious fitness another month or two.
I read of runners facing a race and thinking "yeah, I've been training well, and I just know I'm due to smash some PRs, so bring it on." I wish I could be like that. I wish I could feel my training pushing me to as-yet-unscaled heights. I wish I felt I was due to smash some PRs. But instead, it's the same old slogging around at the same old paces, hoping I can stay uninjured enough to toe the starting line in Toronto in September, where I can run maybe a 3:11:09 and then tear a rotator cuff patting myself on the back.
Posted by joe positive at June 6, 2010 4:07 PM
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No muscle tears -- we'll pat you on the back when you run 3:08 -- it's much cooler up there.
Posted by: Ewen at June 8, 2010 5:24 AM
Hey,
Just found your blog. What's your marathon PR? Because I'd take the 3:11 even if it meant a torn rotator cuff. =)
Posted by: Allen at July 4, 2010 12:42 PM
Oh, read last entry and saw your PR. I'm impressed. I'm running Towpath (Akron) in October and am willing to sell my soul to the devil for a sub-3:20!
Posted by: Allen at July 4, 2010 12:52 PM
Check out Murakami's sweet little bit on the runner's life if you've yet to :) He gets the slog. And it is all slog, all the way down. Under the turtles, I mean....
( how's that for a fine how-do-you-do from someone who lost touch with you circa GBNOs ? )
Posted by: dan at July 9, 2010 2:09 AM