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December 6, 2009
wondering when the magic is going to start
I don't feel particularly positive.
I should. My foot/heel/whatever is 99.8% fine. I ran every step I was supposed to this week, at every pace I was supposed to run. The weather next week in Huntsville is supposed to be nice and cold. I trained hard this time, even with the almost-injury; I PR'd at the half-marathon distance and ran within a couple of seconds of my 5k PR. The one really low-mileage week included something like 12 hours crosstraining, including simulated MP and tempo workouts. I really should be optimistic and rarin' to go.
But I'm not. I can do all my workouts but they don't feel easy and great like they should the last week of taper. Instead, I worry about every corner and puddle and patch of broken pavement and whether breaking stride will hurt my foot. It doesn't, but I worry anyway. I have begun to think of myself as "coming back from injury" even though I really only missed one long run and one 10k tuneup. I read about other people who have trained much harder than I for their marathons, and who (inexplicably) wash out on the day. I feel bad for those people, but I also worry that it will happen to me. I read about people who have had awesome training cycles and are heading for huge PRs, and I'm overjoyed for them but also somewhat down because I don't think it's going to be happening for me. I read about people who have sustained a debilitating injury and can't run at all, and I feel bad for them, and feel bad for whining about "just not feeling right" but I also worry that it will happen to me.
So I am waiting for this taper magic to start.
Posted by joe positive at December 6, 2009 5:55 PM
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FWIW, that is exactly how I felt before Chicago and ended up with a great race (for me). Clear the negative thoughts and get ready. You will kick Huntsville.
Posted by: Mindi at December 6, 2009 9:32 PM