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December 25, 2009
13 days later
I am gainfully employed again. Back at my old IT job, back in my old cube, even. Many of the same people are there, doing the same things they were doing 3 years ago, and the past two weeks have been a weird deja vu for me. While I was gone, someone else with my same name joined the company and now has my old email address, so she's received some "welcome back!" emails and I've received an xmas card meant for her. Good times.
For the past 13 days I've done nothing but walk and a little elliptical and even less stairmaster. And my heel still hurts. Not as much, but some. After almost 2 weeks off it shouldn't hurt at all. And this has me profoundly depressed. I feel like a complete failure. I trained hard this year and was delighted with my return from 2008's stress fracture. I got into pretty good shape and was looking for a decent marathon (and a PR), and I almost had it, but I blew it. And now I'm a 46-year old woman with a chronic low-grade undiagnosed running injury, and I've got a full-time job now taking up a lot of my time, and I'm not getting any younger. I was never great as a runner, but I thought I could maybe be good, just a little. But it will not happen in this lifetime.
Posted by joe positive at December 25, 2009 11:20 AM
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Congrats on the employment, even if not ideal.
I hear you on the aches/pains thing. I seem to be having the same problem. I took almost 6 weeks off and I still have some nagging aches and pains. I am almost tempted to scale back this whole season and start looking toward fall 2010 as a time try for some good numbers.
I don't really have any advice because I know that is a crappy feeling. But before you know it, you'll likely be in good shape again and the heel pain will be nothing more than a distant memory.
Posted by: Mindi at December 26, 2009 10:59 AM
mindi, you're young and can afford to take a down season. At my age, I'm not really sure I can come back from something like that.
re employment: it's actually got a lot going for it, especially in this economy :-) I am actually pretty surprised they hired me back; I thought a 2-year break made me a dinosaur for sure.
anyway, thanks for the kind words and encouragement.
Posted by: joe positive at December 26, 2009 1:50 PM
I'm actually amazed that you did as well as you did, considering the previous time off during injury followed by compromised training in the final weeks. Not to mention a headwind for 14+ miles. Jesus. Give yourself a break.
I also fail to see how you "blew it" but maybe there's something between the lines in your race report that I'm not seeing. It sounds like you ran a conservative race, which under the circumstances was probably the smartest thing to do.
I hope you sort out the injury problem soon -- have you seen an orthopedist? In any event, I hope you don't give up. But I do understand that mindset.
Posted by: Julie at December 27, 2009 4:02 PM