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September 14, 2008
jinxed
When I was little, we used to say that if you crossed the fingers on both hands you'd jinx it, "it" being whatever you were trying coax to happen by crossing your fingers in the first place.
This afternoon we attended a birthday party for my ex-running coach, who turned 70 yesterday. He and I are not on unfriendly terms, just haven't really kept up with each other since April or May. I was surprised to be invited to the party, but looking forward to seeing a bunch of people I hadn't seen in ages. It turned out to be a disaster. There were close to 100 people there. Most them have known each other for years and years and years, and I have felt (or imagined myself to be) very much a newcomer for the whole 7 years I was in this club. Today was no exception, or maybe I just wasn't primed for a party, but all I could see was scores of fit healthy people having a good time together, discussing their training or their upcoming races or recent races or all of it. And here I was with my little wallflower self and my measly 6.5 miles for the week and no racing plans to speak of. I grabbed a beer, found a very outgoing friend and listened to him talk for about twenty minutes, and then we left.
I came home to an email from my current coach suggesting I resume training by running less, but faster! Lord have mercy, that's what got me into this mess in the first place! Damn it, I want to be one of those people looking forward to a marathon, not looking backward because that's all there is.
Posted by joe positive at September 14, 2008 7:05 PM
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