October 31, 2004
Weekend workouts as follows:
Friday I did 80 minutes pool running. My clubmate couldn't make it, so I had to entertain myself. Gosh, I'm boring. I'd planned an hour and a half but quit 10 minutes early.
Saturday I went to the gym for rowing/stairmaster/ergometer/elliptical and lower-body weights, then to the pool for 60 minutes pool running. My clubmate M was there, so the time passed quickly.
Today was the "long run" - 3 hours in the pool. M was there too so it wasn't nearly as bad as it could've been. With 15 minutes left to go I tried running without the float belt, and lasted about 5 minutes before I had to put the belt back on.
I just recently got back from a little 20-min bike ride. My leg where the fracture is feels fine, but my quad and hip still feel like they're on fire - intermittently. I have no idea what could be causing it.
October 28, 2004
I saw my doctor today. He said I still need to wear the boot for 2 more weeks, but I can start weightbearing xtraining (like the elliptical) as long as it doesn't hurt. If xrays look good in 2 weeks I can start running, he says. Cool.
This afternoon I went to the gym after work:
5m + 5km rowing (26:41)
15 min ergometer, 85 rpm
25 min recumbent bike, 130 bpm goal
14 min elliptical, low resistance/high turnover
lower-body weights: abductor/adductor, quad, hamstring
I was so psyched to get on the elliptical again after 2 weeks of no weightbearing, but by the time I got there I was fighting a cramp in my foot. This was unrelated to the stress fracture, just one of those things. I lost a minute trying to get rid of the cramp.
October 26, 2004
Monday I was back in my coach's pool after work. I did 90 minutes; the first 30 included sort-of intervals (2 laps hard, 1 easy) and the last hour I was joined by a clubmate, a really fantastic masters runner who's also battling injury at the moment. She literally ran circles around me :-) We kept the pace conversational but we weren't just drifting either. Pool running goes a lot faster with company.
Today at the gym: 5 min + 5km rowing (26:16); 20 min ergometer, iso-strength, 80rpm; 30 min recumbent bike, constant heart rate, 130. The fracture site was a little tiny bit sore, but it's been 6 straight days of xtraining. Day off tomorrow, and I actually feel like I've earned it.
October 24, 2004
Last night the on-call phone rang 7 times, a record. 3x before 11PM, then once at 11:30, 2:03, 4:30, and 7 something. I'd planned a hard gym workout followed by an hour of intervals in the pool, but by the time I got done with the gym part I just wanted to go home and sleep. But I did get a pretty hard workout at the gym, lots of beats per minute for about an hour and a half, followed by some weights.
The part of my leg that has the stress fracture is feeling better and better. In fact, it's not the thing that hurts the most - that would be the front and inner quad of the leg with the fracture. That started bugging me 3 or 4 weeks ago for no reason I could think of, and it hasn't gotten better even though I haven't run in 2 weeks and 3 days. Anyway, this week I started reading a bit about trigger points, and I think I may have found something that actually helps. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.
I see the doctor this week for a followup appointment. Maybe maybe maybe he will let me lose the boot, or use the elliptical, or maybe even run. I know I shouldn't even think about it but I just can't help it.
October 23, 2004
the rest of the week
Horrible, hectic week at work and my head is still spinning. It seems like all I've done is work and work out, with a little sleep in there somewhere. My husband painted our bedroom a different color this week and I'm still surprised every time I see it.
Tuesday: sore, tired, and a little down; no workout
Wednesday: the usual at the gym - 5min + 5K rowing, 20min ergometer, 30min recumbent bike.
Thursday: pool running! My coach has graciously lent me the use of his pool and an aquajogger. It's the closest thing to painfree running I can remember, and it reminds me of happier days. I did an hour, with hard/easy intervals the middle 30min.
Friday: the usual at the gym. Worked until 6:30 so I got started late. When I left there was only one other person there. I bet the staff thought we were the world's biggest losers to be huffing away on a Friday night.
Saturday: 3 hours pool running. God.
October 18, 2004
5 minutes warmup on the rowing machine
5km rowing (28:33)
20 minutes ergometer, "hills"
30 minutes recumbent bike, "aerobic." Tried to keep heartrate over 130, rpm over 100. left quite a puddle of sweat, oops, sorry.
Wore headphones again today and while I'd never run with them, they do help pass the time in the gym. For some reason the only news channel showing on the bank of 17 TVs was FoxNews. With apologies to conservatives and pro-Bush people who might be reading this: that channel can hardly be called news, can hardly be called journalism. I'm not sure what it is, but it sure makes me pedal harder.
October 17, 2004
live! vicariously! (or, chin up!)
This week certainly had its ups and downs. Monday and Tuesday I hit the gym pretty hard. Tuesday I was kind of tired and sore, but I thought it was from using muscles I don't normally use in running so I didn't think much of it. In fact I welcomed it. Wednesday I did no exercise, felt so much worse throughout the day that I stopped in at the doctor's (it's just across the street from my work). He hadn't seen the MRI yet, but he gave me some mild painkillers, a pair of crutches, and a prescription for another round of xrays and told me to schedule an appointment for the next day after the xrays.
Flash forward to Thursday: I still feel like crap, the doctor looks at the new xrays and says yes, it's a stress fracture of the fibula. He offers me the choice of a walking boot or a cast. I choose the boot because it's removable. I asked about crosstraining and after rolling his eyes he said no weightbearing stuff for 4 weeks (the length of the sentence). I have a followup appointment in 2 weeks so I suppose I could beg for early parole at that time.
Friday marked the third day in a row with no exercise whatsoever. I spent a lot of time working and then as soon as there was no more work to be done I found something else to do, some of it useful and some of it not. Then I went to a dinner party and drank a bunch of wine.
Saturday I hauled my sorry butt to the gym for anykind of redemption I could find. Luckily this gym is very new and has every kind of machine you can ever think of. They even have a recumbent elliptical, which I'd never even heard of. I got on 4 different machines for 15 minutes each (all I could stand), then did some very very wimpy lower-body weights.
Today I went to the gym again for more of the same. I think I like the rowing machine a lot. It's definitely exercise, but it's so different from running that you just can't compare it to running, so you just row. I rowed 5km, then did 15 min each on the recumbent ET and the ergometer (silly thing you "pedal" with your arms), then 30 min on the recumbent bike, then more wimpy LB weights. It's not much but I feel like I'm doing something as opposed to doing nothing.
This weekend our first cold front of the season came through, and in Florida this is a really big deal and a cause for lots of outdoor celebration, especially for those who have slogged miles and miles all summer long. I missed a 5-mile race that's really a blast. Some of my clubmates raced it and did really well. I tried not to be envious and almost succeeded.
October 11, 2004
(no, not running) This morning I went to the gym and did 30 minutes on the bike, 30 minutes on the arctrainer (like an elliptical but with the flywheel in front), and 35 minutes on the elliptical. Then I did some extremely wimpy lower-body weights (abductor/adductor, quadriceps). It was almost beyond boring, but I felt like I was doing myself some good.
About 45 minutes into the workout I felt a little tiny pain, but compared to 99% of the running workouts during the past 10 weeks, this was practically pain-free. I don't know whether this was from not running for the past 3 days or from the workout itself (elliptical trainer always makes me feel like I've had a really good stretch), or some combination of both.
MRI is scheduled for tomorrow and I guess the doctor will have it a day or two later. At one point last week I decided not to try running until Tuesday (tomorrow), but since then my husband has talked me into waiting until after the doc's read the MRI.
Can I really hope to stay in reasonable shape just crosstraining?
October 10, 2004
I just don't know what to do with myself
Elvis Costello once recorded a very cool version of Burt Bachrach's "I Just Don't Know What To Do With Myself." It's a post-breakup song mourning - besides the breakup itself - everything that you lose when you cast your lot with one particular thing, and then that thing goes away.
This weekend my husband and I took an impromptu driving trip through north-central Florida. I spent a lot of time driving and thinking and grinding my teeth. I came up with at least twelve different training plans, and after carefully formulating each one I thudded back to earth after reminding myself that I'm not able to run yet. Thud bump cry, think of another plan. Beginning runners are always told "you must stick with it and make running a part of your life." The crappy thing is when you make it part of your life - a really big part, social and emotional as well as physical - and then it's gone.
Ugh, really wallowing in it this evening. Ah well, today's the day. Today I can probably forgive myself for the excessive self-pity. Just have to start over tomorrow, without the drama.
October 7, 2004
stick a fork in me
This morning I tried 2 miles, so slow I looked like a very awkward and bad racewalker. And it hurt so much I just knew I couldn't do it 13 more times at any pace, so I decided for real that I would not run Chicago this weekend.
Later in the day my doctor called (I'd put in a plea for iontophoresis or anything imaginable to get me through the race). He said that my xrays suggested a (healing) fibular stress fracture, the radiologist's evaluation of the xrays suggested a (healing) fibular stress fracture, and the fact that running still hurts (and not-running feels better) really suggests a stress fracture. He won't know for sure until after an MRI next week, but he has his opinions.
I was pretty rocky for a while today, but much better now. Over the next few days I may try some pool running or spinning, but I'm going to lay off road running until Tuesday. Then (if I can) I'll start training again for the Jacksonville marathon Dec 19.
Some people reading this blog have made very kind and encouraging comments, and I really, really appreciate it. Thanks so much.
October 2, 2004
I'm not even tapering, yet I'm going crazy.
My body seems out to get me every few days. After a few happy running days once I started taking voltaren (superultra anti-inflammatory), the plantar fasciitis is back on the left side, and now my right quad is sore for no reason I can think of. It's been like this since Wednesday and nothing really seems to help.
I go out every morning hoping for a decent run, but it just doesn't feel good. Mentally, this is hellish. At least three times a day I decide not to get on the plane to Chicago. After sitting for a while I feel better, so I start to get excited about the race again.
Coach thinks I should do a slow 15 tomorrow for the last long run. I'm not sure. When I'm really down, the last thing I want is to be around people, so I'm not looking forward to running that 15 with the club (we run long together on Sundays). I'm not too wild about my own company either, so the idea of 15 solo isn't appealing either.
Part of me is thinking about cutting way back, I mean way back, like maybe 5-4-3 for the next 3 days to see if this shite starts to heal. I know it sounds weird coming from a mileage junkie, but I don't really see where packing in a few extra miles is is going to help me now.
I'm really not taking this very well at all.