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May 05, 2005
driving with a flat tire
i am hurting. i can even feel this groin stuff as i sit here. last night after work i went on my run home. i was feeling pretty good and strong and ran for about 70 minutes. by the last ten minutes of the run the familiar pain in my groin and pelvis began to creep in deep. it's such a strange pain and difficult to explain. it runs deep. luckily i had an appointment this morning with my applied kinesiologist and he worked on my varied problem areas. today he used the metaphor of what happens to the rim of your car wheel when you drive on a flat tire. and that is how it feels. he is hopeful but i am beginning to feel a burning desperation. so no running for me today.
last night after a shower and some food we walked about 2 miles to Pep Boyz to pick up my car from the repair shop. we were unable to pay with a check as my sweet babe forgot his license and wallet so we had to grab a cab back home, run in...run out, and head back over to Pep Boys, making it there just before closing to pick up the car. the rest of last night was filled with similar bumbles and bickerings so i was finally glad to stretch out across my bed and close my eyes.
i am trying so hard to be relaxed about the whole injury thing. i've tried out innumerable perspectives. i am perspectively pooped. at one time when people asked me why i run my response would be "because i can." i loved the freedom of going as long or as hard as i wanted. running seems to make everything else in my life work better. what a wonder it is to be able to exert all of this physical, emotional, and psychological energy over the miles, through trails, around the track. running is something in my life that one else can really (at the core of it all) control. it's all up to me where and when and how hard. the dark side of this is now my core (quite literally) is saying no. and now when asked why i am not running, all i can think and say is "because i can't."
Posted by E-Beth at May 5, 2005 11:21 AM
Comments
Thanks for the message! I was trying to figure out fun things to tell people at work, like maybe I beat someone up or something ;) I compromised with a more boring "I fell walking up the stairs" which is lame but it's not quite as dramatic as I fainted. People were I work are quite noisy as is so I didn't want to make things work. Feeling better, hope you are too!
Posted by: Nanda at May 9, 2005 01:12 PM