The funny thing is that I don't feel unfit. I haven't gained weight and aside from being slightly curvier, I don't think my body has changed all that much from when I was a 50+ mile a week runner. Of course, what changes there are may become painfully obvious whenever I have time to sign up for and run some local road race over the winter.
It's probably been about a month since I've gone running now. I don't do any sort of working out at all here at school, which is unfortunate since that would probably help with the stress. I went through a phase about a month and a half ago where I was just bursting into tears at the drop of a hat I was feeling so overwhelmed, but thankfully that silliness seems to have passed. Not that the workload lightened up any, but for better or worse, three and a half weeks from now it will all be over.
After this semester, I will have exactly a year left in the program. That of course assumes that I stick with it and am here for every semester between now and then. Life has a way of complicating things though, and there may be family responsibilities that throw a wrench in that plan.
My miles and miles have always given me a safe place away from the rest of the world to process the puzzles of life and come to conclusions and I rather miss having that. The truth is that I would probably use the time that I do have right now much more efficiently if I took the time to step away onto the lovely trails around here. I don't think that's likely to happen before the end of this semester, but if I make it back here in January (or even if I don't), I'm going to try really hard to make that a resolution for myself. Hey, if my mongo-preggers and toddler-mom blog pals can make time for it, I really have no excuse.
