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September 17, 2005
Yet Another Crushing Blow to the Self-Esteem
Today I got yet another rejection letter from a job I interviewed for. I knew that the letter would come today or Monday, well it came today. I felt good about this job. I am qualified for it. Maybe too qualified. I know what the position requires and have done all of it, yet I still was not the selected interviewee. I've determined that there must be something wrong with me with the way that I can not get a job. Maybe I'll just give up. The thought of going for another graduate degree is looking more and more appealing, but the earliest I could start would be January, so I guess that at the moment all I can do is look.
It was really warm and muggy when I ran this morning. In other words, it was a really good day to be doing an easy, short run. I think that I would have wilted if I had to do a long run this morning. The good news is that it is not supposed to be as humid tomorrow morning. I would like it to be cooler, but the humidity is the real problem. This morning wasn't too bad. I decided to run on the G trail because two years ago when I popped a huge PR that is what I did. I told all of you that I am superstitious. This is the third consecutive year that we have had the remnants of some tropical storm/hurricane before the PDR. There were two trees, or maybe it was one that split, down on the trail that I had to stop to climb over. I tried to stay really relaxed and enjoy my surroundings today because there was nothing to be gained by going longer or harder. I ran out to the end of the main part of the trail and then came back. It's somewhere between 5.2 and 5.5 miles, but I'm not really sure and it can't be mapped. I ran for 38 minutes and called it a day.
This afternoon I went up to the expo. I guess that you could say it was a success. It was successful in the sense that I did not get lost. Philly is the kind of city that you really need to know where you are going or you can get terribly lost very fast. I can get around, but I am by no means completely comfortable in the city. The only mishap I had was that I did not trust myself. I thought I had passed the street that the hotel was on and got ready to turn around to go back and it was the next street. Parking was a royal pain, the host hotel is in the middle of Center City and there wasn't any on-street parking. I saw one lot, but it was a flat rate of $20 for the day, which I absolutely refused to pay. There was a garage around the corner which was by no means cheap, but it was much less money. It was obvious that a lot of people balked at the lot because I ended up parking on the 7th floor of the garage. There was nothing special at the expo, but I don't really like expos anyhow. The same vendors are at every one and the clothes usually aren't that nice. I seem to find better deals on nicer clothes at other places. The shoes really aren't cheap and if you don't like them you're SOL. I trusted myself getting out and didn't get lost. There may have been a slightly shorter way to get home, but I didn't want to risk it.
Tonight I have a nice soak in an icy tub planned. It's one of those things that I have done before some of my good races, so I do it before I want to do well. My goal for tomorrow is to run smart and hopefully fast. I would like something in the 1:22-1:23 range. I really have no idea what I am capable of at the moment. In the spring I always have a 7 mile and 10 mile tempo run under my belt before doing the hilly half in town. There have not been any workouts like that on my schedule since I have only really started to recover from May and train again. My minimal goal would be to run faster than I did in March, the course is significantly faster and the weather is nicer. I would like it to be cooler, but it is better than 35 degrees and windy.
Posted by Blondie at September 17, 2005 05:37 PM
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Good luck tomorrow! Can't wait to hear how it goes... Try not to embarrass Deena too badly. :)
Sorry to hear about the job situation. It's hard when you are looking - but I'm sure with time you'll find just the right spot. Good luck!
Posted by: Beth at September 17, 2005 07:43 PM
Good luck! You're right - you can't be upset with yourself on any given day if you give it everything you have. Go out there, make yourself tired, and be happy with it :-) But a little good luck to go along with that won't hurt! Have fun.
Posted by: Alison at September 17, 2005 10:16 PM
run fast vibes! have fun blondie! (ever consider PH school, and health education?) :)
Posted by: Audrey at September 17, 2005 10:23 PM