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December 17, 2004
Still Alive
Life has been quite busy the past few days. My date did not abduct me and kill me or anything crazy, I just have not even been at home or with access to a computer the past few days. This is going to end up being a marathon entry, so here it goes...
Wednesday morning I woke up with no desire to do anything. I slept very hard on Tuesday night and struggled to get out of bed. While I was in the shower, I said "self, you have to cheer up and go out tonight". It was still chilly in the afternoon when I went to run. It was not as spring-ee of feeling of a run as on Tuesday, but it was still very relaxing and enjoyable. My legs were a touch on the tired side, but I just focused on enjoying running for the pure joy of running.
I got in the door and had an hour until I had to meet my date. I jumped into the shower and got dressed again. Having a date on a school/work night stinks because it involves getting all done up twice. Before I left, my mom called and said that they weren't coming home, but going out to dinner. They didn't know that I was going on this date, so I told her that I was heading out on a date. I asked her why she sounded so upset and she said the cancer had either spread into her bones or that she had arthritis. The doctor wanted more x-rays done after her surgery next week. Of course, I was a mess when she said that. I was driving over to the pub and my cell phone rang. Mom called and told me that she had re-read what the doctor told her, that the pattern is not consistent with the spread of a tumor. It is probably some kind of arthritis or osteoperosis. When I was heading over I kept thinking that I could call and cancel since family does come before a first date. Her second call was a relief, but I am still concerned about what is going on in her back.
The guy and I hung out for a few hours. We each had two glasses of wine and shared some appetizers. I did not eat much because I wasn't too hungry from stress. Driving home, I realized that I probably should have eaten more. We had a really nice time and may be going out again sometime (not this weekend).
I got home and collapsed into bed. At midnight the phone rang (a wrong number) and I couldn't get back to sleep. When I got home from work yesterday, I tried to sleep but didn't get too much before I headed over to the track.
We let C lead our run last night, which is never a good idea. Every time I run with him, I say that I will never run with him again. He never has a route planned out, takes us on some really dangerous roads, sprints and stops all the time, and is generally a pain to run with. I was hungry from not eating much on Wednesday night and not eating a whole lot during the day at work. It was still cool as far as I was concerned, but milder than Tuesday and Wednesday. The pace last night was very easy and relaxing. We ran for about 50 minutes.
I was not going to go to the bar after the group because I wanted to go home and eat a real dinner, but I decided that right now I need to keep living my life as much as my parents need to keep living their lives. I ended up staying at the bar until about 11 and not eating a real dinner. The bar does have the absolute best soft pretzel sticks in the world. I ate four or five of those and had two beers for my dinner. Definitely not the most nutritous meal. I collapsed into bed again, but this time I slept until 3 AM.
Today I have been starving and about to fall asleep all day. I was going to go to the gym today, but I believe that my absolute exhaustion is a good indication that I need a day completely off. My shin was sore today because my boot was hitting it in a tender spot. When I got home from work I fixed a small snack to eat before I did this entry and go to the grocery store (next on the to-do list).
Tonight I have to make cookie dough for the cookie baking tomorrow morning. Tomorrow I have to buy the gifts for J and have fun at our party. It is always nice to go and see everyone from the track in regular clothes. Two weeks ago I saw one of the newer members out and he hardly recognized me in "regular" clothes versus running gear!
Now time to read what everyone else is up to as I continue to ice my sore shin.
Posted by Blondie at December 17, 2004 03:25 PM