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December 06, 2004
Bummer Start to the Week
Most of the day today was actually a pretty good day, I just got the bad news about an hour ago (more about that later). Today was actually a half decent day at work, completely unproductive, but tolerable. Perhaps the fact that only about half of the students were in school made it easier. I forgot to get the number of the guy who I met on Friday night from my co-worker, but that can always be taken care of tomorrow. Apparently he is quite interested, she was filling me in on him today.
This afternoon I used a half hour of the comp time left from when we had open house last month. The pool at the gym is supposed to have 6 lap lanes from 3:00 until 4:15. This was not the case, three lanes were being used by one of the after school programs (maybe because one of the local school districts did not have school today). I ended up having to share a lane with lap swimmers. It really was not all that bad, my hair was already getting wet. There were only a few big splashes in my face. It was so boring, time would have passed so much faster if I had a pool-running partner. The first half hour really dragged, but the second half hour went by much faster. After I got dried off, I went into the fitness center and rode the stationary bike for 35 minutes and did some ab work. While I was at work, I also scheduled a massage for later on this week.
Now onto the bad news. Last week my mom had to have a biopsy for something that had shown up in her mamogram. She found out today that the tumor is cancerous. My mother tends to be on the paranoid side in the first place, this diagnosis has really thrown her. The doctor who is a family friend told her that it is an aggressive cell but is small. She had my dad talk to the doc and she didn't really understand what he was saying. I think this is because she was so upset that she stopped thinking and hearing and just started crying. I told her that the best thing she can do right now is wait until her appointment on Friday morning. When she's there she can ask questions and get more information. She isn't really sure what her doctor was telling her about treatment. They have to check out her nodes and then they can tell her more. Now she thinks that some soreness that she has in her upper arm is cancer as well. I don't mean to sound harsh, but I want her to think positive thoughts and get more information before she jumps to conclusions. She told me that she doesn't need me to come with her to the appointment on Friday because my dad can come, but she might need me some other days.
Sorry about the heavy topic. It's funny, I feel like I can put this all out here since nobody here knows my mother. I also feel like we all know each other well in some way, yet most of us have never met face to face. It is easier to share this with strangers than with some of the people I know. My mom isn't really to talk to people yet, so the best I can do is just be here for her.
Posted by Blondie at December 6, 2004 07:17 PM
Comments
Sorry to hear the bad news with your mom. Cancer is a word you never want to hear in association with yourself or anyone in your family. But you are right, being positive and upbeat (likely harder than it sounds) is very key! Actual scientific studies have shown that those that are "positive" have better outcomes. And remember, breast cancer is one of (if not the) most curable of cancers. I'll be praying for you guys!
Posted by: Beth at December 6, 2004 08:09 PM
Oh man. Sorry to hear it. We're thinking positive thoughts for your family ...
Posted by: jenandmats at December 6, 2004 09:14 PM
I am so sorry. I will be thinking of your family... Meghan
Posted by: Meghan at December 7, 2004 12:59 PM