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September 08, 2004
Two down, two to go
My title refers to my work week. I can't think in terms of an entire school year, it is just way too depressing for me. I am trying to make the best of a very bad situation, but it is hardly tolerable at this point. Later on tonight I must revise my resume and send it out to one of the local schools that has an opening. Of course, I know who most of the people who will also be applying and even work with some of those individuals. I have adopted a very bad attitude towards work, primarily due to the lack of reward from the higher ups (I never even get a thank you). The work situation has gotten so bad that it is affecting my everyday life and my health at times. OK, OK, enough of my complaining about work. I know lots of other people are in just as bad of a situation or even worse, so I'll just suck it up.
The weather on my run this afternoon was nasty to put it mildly. It was on the warm side, around 83, with 100 percent humidity. At least this was only supposed to be an easy run. The only reason I even wore my watch and timed it was to make sure I didn't do anything stupid, like run too fast. I know that I can probably do more damage by running too hard two days before a race than the day before it. I probably could have told you in the first half mile that there was no way that I would be able to run too fast. My legs felt absolutely DFT (you can figure out what that means :)! ). By about the mile point in my run, I was absolutely drenched in sweat. My feet and legs were not happy with me since I did wear dress shoes to work today. Sneakers are not techically allowed in our dress code, but I have been able to wear them on a somewhat regular basis this year.
Even though this run was supposed to be easy, I started to beat myself up when I got done since it was so slow. This is one of the reasons that when I want to run really easy I don't even wear my watch. I guess that I am sort of time-obsessed.
I am getting really nervous about my race on Friday night. I have not really raced since June. I did run one race in July, which I should not have run. I wore my flats even though my plantar fascia was acting up. By the end of the race, I could hardly run. I was limping so severely that it was commented on by the race directors. I have not had those flats on since that night and I am nervous to put them back on. I think that I am going to bring them with me tomorrow and wear them for striders to build my confidence. The other factor in my being so nervous is that I have not run on the track since early June and I have no idea what kind of shape I am in or what kind of target pace I should shoot for. This race has some significance for me. I have run big PRs at this race for two years in a row. It draws a great field and is a fair course with a few inclines and declines, but nothing major. I think that I may have a shot at a PR, but I don't really know since I haven't been doing track work, I've been doing grass loop pick-ups and hills. I know that I am running the hills faster than I was at this time last year, but I was also doing track repeats so I knew what I could be aiming for. Tomorrow I am going to run some with J who predicted my time last year. On Monday I asked for a prediction and he told me that he would have to get back to me later in the week. When I told him what I would be happy with he told me that it would not make me happy, even though I think it would. I'm going to try to put it out of my mind for the time being because I don't want to obsess over it and I am not putting all of my eggs in one basket.
Posted by Blondie at September 8, 2004 07:00 PM