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August 15, 2004
'Becky, I've never seen your legs looking so thin'....
I'm going in reverse order with my entries, but this one doesn't fit with the previous one, so I decided to make a new one. On Saturday, I went shopping with my mom and very fashion-conscious sister. They wanted to buy me some "cool school clothes" to wear to class when it starts since I have been working for 5 years and have mostly dressy outfits. My sister led me around Bloomingdales picking out jeans for me to try on. I kept protesting that none would fit me because (as has been discussed in a past thread on fast-women.com) I definitely have what I call "runner's quads" that make it hard for me to find comfortable and flattering jeans. She told me not to worry, so we headed into the dressing room (with my mom, too.)
Much to my surprise, I did find two pairs that I liked. Of course, since they fit in the quads, the waists are too big but my mom and sister found me a belt that I hope will do the trick. But when I was trying them on, my mom said to me, "Becky, your legs are smaller now that you've stopped running. I've never seen them looking so thin." First of all, my legs are not "thin." They are muscular, and yes, I've probably lost a little muscle mass over the past couple of months more from not doing leg weights because of my knee injury. But I hated that comment because I'd rather have been RUNNING during that time no matter if I've lost a tiny bit of weight! I contemplated storming out of the dressing room, but the materialistic voice in my head reminded me that we hadn't paid for the jeans yet. :)
On the weight/eating subject, I noticed last night that at our table at the wedding we went to, I was the only woman who actually didn't just push my dessert around on the plate. (Actually, I ate all of mine and some of Matt's.) The other girls, who weren't particularly friendly to me or Matt, barely are their dinners and certainly didn't do more than pick at their desserts. I hate the fact that even though I know I'm active and have every right to eat as much as I want (within reason, of course), I am always the one eating the most. Actually, I eat more than Matt does, too, so it's an experience I have during most meals! Thankfully, I am confident enough in myself to do what I want and (try not to) think too much about it.
Now it's really time for bed. Being on a student schedule allows me way too much bedtime flexibility!
Posted by becky at August 15, 2004 11:16 PM
Comments
Hey Becky! This post cracked me up - I feel the exact same way that you do. I am one of 4 girls in the family and I am always out eating my sisters (and my boyfriend). It used to bother me, but then I reminded myself that I run about 50-60 miles per week more than they do. I posted a week ago about a teammate who called me "doughy" compared to the other girls on our team. As women, I think we just need to be confident in who we are as runners and people, and it sounds like you are :) Hang in there with the knee...you are doing all the right things!
Posted by: bridget at August 16, 2004 12:03 PM